I just couldn't get off the boat. I know how badly Julio wanted me too. But I'm terrified of water, of drowning, of that moment where I lose all conciousness, where I can't breathe, when I choke. But I trusted Julio, I really did. I put faith in to him. I know he didn't mean to let go, he was struck by lightening. But because of it, I lost conciousness, I nearly drownd, and my life was near to almost taken away from me. That moment, I thought I was done. As I was floating down low, I thought I was already gone. It kept getting darker, and more freezing as I fell.